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Day 19 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Trigger Shot Time

Day 19 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Trigger Shot Time

(Entry written prior to posted date)

My doctor recommended I should wait another day due to some of my eggs being just under the size they want. I think they said 3 or 4 were just under the size and they think and one more day could make the difference between mature eggs and not mature eggs. I’m not gaining any more weight which I am really happy about. I’m also not feeling as bloated either, it’s about damn time. I’ve been peeing a lot, like a lot a lot. My first IVF round I started peeing a lot after the surgery and not before. So I am kind of worried about this being a sign that my body might be losing my eggs before the surgery, but I’m not bleeding at all, so I don’t know.

 

I don’t have headaches anymore, I’d say they stopped a few days ago. I’m not sure which injection was causing the headaches. I hear Lupron tends to do that. It seems like when I was getting the most headaches it was first thing in the morning and then it would dissipate in the afternoon.

 

I got the call back this afternoon from my clinic and they said I am good to go ahead and trigger tonight! It’s been a really long cycle for me so I am so ready to get this done and head back home. I’ve been really missing my husband and my puppy. My husband doesn’t get as much time off from work as I do and he had already used up his time for the year. But I am really happy my Mom has been here for support. I am so ready to do this trigger shot and get this egg retrieval done and over with.

 

Later that day…

 

I just did my trigger shot. I was really confused this time about how to do it. Last time it was a simple 10,000 IU shot of Pregnyl. But this time not only was I on a different HCG shot (Novarel) but it came in two seperate 5,000 vials instead of just one 10,000 vial. There were several things confusing about this. First, the pack came with two shots. So I thought maybe I needed to inject myself twice since there were two vials and two shots. I looked on the packet they gave me and it was worded really weird. Plus the video instructions did not cover how to do it if you have two  separate vials of powder medicine. I even tried looking on YouTube to see if there were instructions with two separate vials, but I could not find anything and time was running out.

 

Luckily, I remembered from my first retrieval they had mentioned the one packet of instructions they initially gave me needed to be updated. I also remembered they sent me an email about my updated instructions (different from the first set) for the trigger shot. I rechecked my email and there was an attachment that I hadn’t read yet. That attachment had instructions specific to my medicine as well as my dose. So had I not double checked all my paperwork I would have needlessly called their answering service. The moral of the story is even when you think you know what you are doing with your trigger shot try planning ahead and do a practice run of what you are actually doing. I am a visual person so it would have been better to have pulled everything out of the box to see what I was working with. It turns out I needed to mix both of the powder vials with the liquid, instead of doing two separate injections. I gave myself plenty of time to mix the medicine this time, compared to last time. That proved to be a good idea, because the mixing of the two vials took a while. The powder took a long time to dissolve. So for me at least, it worked out perfectly to start getting everything ready 20 minutes before the exact time I had to inject. After the powder had finally dissolved it turned out I only had two minutes to spare. Plus I think the Novarel powder took longer to dissolve compared to the Pregnyl (from my first IVF cycle). Novarel seemed to be a lot more chunky. Remember not to shake the vial, but to instead gently rotate it until it dissolves.

 

The shot wasn’t that painful, maybe a 3 out of 10, and that’s coming from someone who has a low pain tolerance. I had mom give me the injection since it’s in an awkward spot I couldn’t see, and I wanted to make sure it got in there correctly. To me it feels just like a progesterone shot, so it wasn’t that bad. It just looks intimidating with how long the needle is. We did the shot exactly at 9pm, the time they told us to. So it turned out well. I felt a lot of relief knowing I was all done for this round and the only thing I need to do now is to show up for the surgery.

 

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Day 18 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Nightmares on IVF Meds

Day 18 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Nightmares on IVF Meds

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Wolves and orcas and bears, oh my! The nightmares abound when on IVF meds, or maybe it’s just me. I’ve heard other women also tend to have an increase in dreams that are absolutely terrifying when on IVF meds. My go-to nightmares tend to feature either a ravenous bear or a moose that wants to stomp the sh** out of me. I live in Alaska, so go figure. But tonight a few new killers decided to make an appearance, a pack of wolves stalked me through my home, and later I was out in open water being circled by an angry killer whale family. Needless to say I’ve been waking up shaking in a cold sweat more often lately. I’m prone to anxiety as it is, but add in the process of doing IVF and it just compounds all these crazy dreams. I’m hoping they will stop after I’m done with this egg retrieval.

 

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My eggs’ expression after being on IVF meds for too long. I found this silly contraption that cooks eggs at a shop in Pike’s Place Market.

 

I found out today that I have four mature eggs! That is two more than just the other day, for a girl with really low ovarian reserve I am pretty dang happy about that. There are also two more bitty eggs that are not quite big enough yet. I’m waiting for a call back on my blood results to see if I am going to be triggering soon.

 

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Shrimp sandwich from Pike Place Chowder.

 

Today I forgot to take my blood pressure medicine, which I think is why I’m feeling a little shaky. The doctor said my blood pressure looks good and is just a little high. Talk to your doctor about any medications you are currently on and whether they may affect your IVF process and pregnancy. I got on a blood pressure medicine that my doctor said is safe for pregnancy and has the added bonus of helping with my chronic headache issue.

 

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So I lost a three pounds in two days, which I’m pretty sure is just water weight. I’ve gained a total of 10 pounds this cycle, but now have dropped down to seven pounds. My last cycle I gained six pounds. Just expect your weight to fluctuate rapidly when you do IVF and you won’t be surprised. Comfy pants are your friend.

 

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If I were to summarize what IVF is like for someone who hasn’t experienced it, I’d say it’s equivalent to each and every planet aligning just perfectly. On good days I’ll beam with happiness and talk about the magical synchronicity of it all. On the not so good days, I talk about it in terms of it being one of the biggest gambles of my life, with odds favoring the house. Whatever cheesy metaphor you choose for the day, just know that a lot of this all boils down to your perception. I’m thankful I even get the opportunity to do this at all, let alone twice. Practicing gratitude helps drown out all the doubt. We all have a Debby Downer that can live in the back of our minds. Even if your doubt is rooted in “reality” and statistics, sometimes you just need to slap some duct tape across that Debbie Downer’s mouth. My way of doing that, at least for today, is to get out and explore the city.

 

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Mom & I enjoying Seattle.

 

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Day 17 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Shake Shack & Study Time

Day 17 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Shake Shack & Study Time

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Since we’ve been here for over two weeks, every time we pass by the new Shake Shack the line is about 40 people deep. Neither of us wanted to stand in the cold for an hour plus for a burger and fries. I can’t help but think that it’s not it’s all hyped up to be. But today was the day…we finally made our debut to the much sought after Shake Shack, only because there were just a few people in line. It was pretty tasty, but I will say I’m glad I didn’t stand in a long line like a crazy person. That was honestly the highlight of our day.

 

After eating we just had a lazy day at the hotel. As per usual, I griped about how bloated I felt. It’s official, I’m a roly poly bloated fatty. This cycle of IVF has lead me to gain ten pounds. Sweet baby Jesus do I feel it too! That’s a lot to gain in a short amount of time. This “normal” IVF weight gain feels anything but. I feel gross and full of fatigue. Mom wanted to rest today and I needed to do some school work. So most of the day I spent studying at the hotel, which was really the only productive thing I did today. But then again I know my body is hard at work growing these eggs.

 

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Day 16 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Cancel IVF Round?

Day 16 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): Cancel IVF Round?

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My doctor said I might need at least one more day on meds. I actually want one or two more days anyway so I use up my remaining meds and so I can grow these smaller eggs a bit more. The problem is I have one really big egg that my body might release  if it gets too much bigger. I’m waiting for a call back this afternoon about whether I will trigger tonight or not.

 

Later that day…

 

I got the phone call in a Whole Foods of all places. I kept zig-zagging away from the hangry customers in the self-serve hot food area, they all but pushed me out of the way to get to their food. I wanted yell at all the as***les around me. Those entitled boojie people kept getting too damn close while I had one finger in my ear and my other ear is trying to hear my doctor over the loud store intercom that incessantly announces Thanksgiving deals. What I managed to make out was this, “You have four eggs on your right side, two on the left, and only three are mature.” I thought to myself, not too bad, considering my last round I had less to work with.

 

“We have a couple of options. We can cancel the IVF cycle. Or we can wait a few more days.” Cancel it?! No way! I’ve put so much money into this. My one egg is 19mm so it’s pretty big. But I have a handful of other ones that look promising. They are concerned I’m going to lose that egg or even more if I keep going. But they said the chance of that happening is less than 5%. I told her I wanted to continue. So I will be back in two days for another ultrasound.

 

This round has been particularly nerve racking and has already had many ups and downs. Despite the near heart attack in the Whole Foods today I managed to get my sh** together and make a decision to move forward and continue my medicine. It’s kind of a cruel experiment when you think about it, spend tens of thousands of dollars on IVF that make our bodies go bazerk in every way and expect us to be calm and decisive with major decisions. You show me a woman who has kept her sh** together during her IVF cycle and I’ll show you a liar.

 

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Day 15 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): The Round That Doesn’t End

Day 15 (Round 2 of IVF Stims): The Round That Doesn’t End

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When will this long cycle end?! I can’t help but create my own version of the Lamb Chops song:

 

“This is the round that doesn’t end,

Yes it goes on and on my friends.

Some people started scanning her

Not knowing all the eggs.

And they’ll continue scanning her

Forever just because

This is the round that doesn’t end…”

 

I’m so bloated now I feel like my body is from a different person, a much more rotund person. I’m in denial that this body is even mine right now. I look very pregnant. I’m hoping I will pee out all this retained water as quickly as I did after my first round. I kid you not, I peed about 20 times in the middle of the night after my first surgery. I had amazingly snapped back to my normal weight after about one week post-surgery. Our bodies are weirdly amazing when you think about it.

 

Today we went to mall and watched Instant Family. I thought it was a really inspiring movie for anyone who has considered the possibility of becoming a foster parent. It covers a lot of questions and topics that I’ve been thinking about lately. I would like to foster and/or adopt, whether I have biological children or not. Today was National Adoption day so the movie couldn’t have been out at a more perfect time. Even if you don’t have an interest in creating a family via adoption or fostering, it has Marky Mark in the movie, need I say more?

 

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