(Entry written prior to posted date)
Is it just me or do these IVF meds give you crazy vivid dreams. I had a dream that I was with a tour group walking on these set of rocks that go out into the sea. Once we got to the end of the rocks and stood looking at the water surrounding us, I saw an orca circling us. I told the tour guide and he said, “No need to worry.” But I noticed something wiggling at my feet. It was a bunch of small baby orcas that got pushed onto the the rocks by the waves. The next thing I knew the waters were rising to the point where our feet slipped out from under us. Half a dozen large orcas had their sights set on killing us. I was one of two people out of seven to survive by managing to swim to shore. When I looked back the orcas were flipping the bodies of the people into the air for fun and then catching them back in their mouths to chomp on them again. Years ago I heard killer whales kill for fun, so their name seems quite fitting. It was a pretty messed up dream. I don’t even know where to start with interpreting it, nor do I really want to. I’ve had other nightmares while going through IVF. I’m not sure if it’s the stress of the situation or if it is actually the meds contributing to this.
So after my terrifying dream, we decided to check out the Bloedel Reserve on Bainbridge island. It was very beautiful. What I liked about the reserve is that it was created in a way to compliment the natural landscape, as opposed to ripping up the land to make an overly manicured garden. Bloedel Reserve is a rugged garden that is more true to nature, with the main exception being the Japanese garden area. I really enjoyed it. It was nice to get out and explore for a good portion of the day. I always feel so centered when I am out in nature and it’s a great way to de-stress during the IVF process.
My doctors have been doing blood tests and ultrasounds on me about every other day since I’ve been here in Seattle. Because my little eggies are responding very slowly to the medicine, I am put into a difficult position. The doctors keep saying, “Okay, I think that if you do just two more days of shots you should be ready.” Yet my eggs barely grow and they don’t grow enough for acceptable size for an egg retrieval.
Now I’m out of my original meds and need to get them delivered. Normally, it’s no big deal for pharmacies that specialize in IVF medication to deliver by the next day. But because I was wandering around in the garden today and being a little too carefree, I didn’t realize how late it was getting. It was four o’clock by the time I called the pharmacy for a refill, they said their delivery department was closed. I would have to wait until Monday, leaving me with without my medication for the entire weekend. Now I was in panic mode.
I had to figure something out. I couldn’t go the whole weekend without my shots. That could put my whole egg retrieval in jeopardy. So I decided I would call my clinic in the morning to see if they have any samples they can give me. My clinic was able to do this the last time I did an egg retrieval. They gave me one Ganirelix when I was out of it before. Some fertility clinics may give you one or two samples in emergency situations, but don’t expect a clinic to give you more than that. Hopefully when I call my clinic in the morning they can help me out with this. Other than this nerve-racking predicament, I had a really nice day getting out and exploring the Bloedel Reserve.
Thank you for reading.